Chili and men in tight pants

It has turned out to be a beautiful Sunday. The weather here in Florida is a mere *68..Which feels good but unfortunately will not last and in a day or so we will be back to being hot and sweaty after merely walking to the car. Such is Florida life. Although with this beautiful weather I am taking advantage of it. Chili and men in tight pants are on the menu for today. Chili for dinner..and men in tight pants on television. In other words..Chili and football. Nothing better than that! Well actually there is..A man to cuddle with on days like this. I guess on that note I can venture into my tales of dating..Which actually..Have not been all that great. Don't get me wrong. I have met some wonderful men. Truly nice men. I just haven't met anyone whom I have felt that..SPARK..with. I am thoroughly enjoying myself though. I go through each day with a smile on my face and laughter in my heart. I do not mind being single. I have my friends and my family so for the first time in my life I do not feel alone, and even on the days where I do not go out and about I still don't feel alone. I feel at peace with myself. I really just wanted to hop on real quick and clear my head of some ramblings..but the smell of chili and the picture of men in tight pants are calling my attention away!

Serial dater?

The new phrase of my life I am in is that dating stage. I found that I actually enjoy talking to men and getting to know what they can bring into a relationship. I'm not out looking for something serious, although I will not walk away from something if it becomes serious. I do however really enjoy the interesting people that I have had the pleasure of getting to know. But does this make me a serial dater? For the fact that I do talk to and date more than one person at a time? However, I do not sleep with any of them. My thought on it is that..If we talk and there seems to be a mutual interest of each other..Let's go on a date. If that one date turns out good..Then let's make it a second. Hang out, spend time together. Get to know one another. Now I'm pretty sure that this will lead to some very interesting encounters. Which in turn will give me something to write about. I have a date planned for Friday night. For now we will call him dater "B". We have been talking for a few weeks and he seems to be interested in me, and I will admit the interest is returned. I am not sure to what extent it is returned but I guess that is what this date will unfold. He has 6 tattooes..I do love me a man who has tattoes. Something about a man with them is just..so sexy. Call me silly but hey..To each their own. So Friday night we are going to dinner. Which means when I get in Friday night after dinner I will be getting on and posting what my date was like. I'll be looking for feedback! Now there is a dater "M" although I am not sure I can call him dater "M"..That story is a bit more complicated and I will share that story at another date and time.  I was reading a self help book about dating yourself, to get to know what you like, to get to know you really. The lady who wrote it said she dated herself for a year. Really just dated to get to know what it was she found that she liked in a guy. What interested her. What she liked, what she didn't like. Things like that. She said she set a year goal that she would date for a year and then look back on it. I, however, do not see the importance of setting a time frame. I feel that I will date, I won't sleep around with anyone, but I will date and if something becomes serious than it does. My intentions are not to go out and date looking for the one but more to date and see what is out there. Feel things out a bit if you get what I mean. So I do believe Friday night will be interesting. He even wears glasses..which is oddly sexy as well..

So I walked down the road a little sideways

Four months ago I came home to my heart being broken and my world shattered. My boyfriend at the time, the man I had been living with for the past year. The man I had stood beside through everything he was going through, had packed his stuff and left while I was at work. I felt my life shatter in that moment. I know what people are thinking. You are young, your life couldn't possibly shatter over that. If he left then you are better off. And right you are. About being better off. But my life did shatter, and at the time I didn't believe I was better off. For about a week I moped around and then I did my best to start to move on. I hadn't heard a word from him, and to this day I really haven't. As hard as I tried I felt like I was in a hole. My life was over. I loved that guy so much. We had talked about getting married. I had found out before he left that he had cheated on me. I had asked him if he was willing to lose me and he told me no. Anyways..Back to me..  I started to realize things, like I had stopped putting myself first, I stopped taking care of me and started taking care of him. So I decided to start back with me. Started hitting the gym again, got my haircut and highlighted, which everyone just loved, starting wearing make up again. In other words..I started doing me. Going out and being with my friends again. My family. The people that I let go of because of him. I started opening my eyes. Even though I was opening my eyes and seeing things for what they really were..I still loved this man. I still missed him. It was still terribly hard on me. I was doing all these things and still felt dead inside. That's when I realized that..yes I had died but it was really a blessing in disguise. I hated the person I was. I hated the person I was being. This was really my second chance at life. So I cried my last tears over him and got up from my knees and knew that this was my chance for a new start. I had gotten into reading about the laws of attraction and how whatever you think about you bring about. I have never been a happy person but I changed my attitude and for the first time in my entire life I am truly truly happy. Now that I have gotten to the most important part of my life. The now..I am living in the now. Living life for every moment that comes along. I've taken my life back into my own hands. For the first time in my life I am okay..even happy with where I am. I love my family because they stood by my side. They were my rock when I needed them the most. I have repaired my relationships with them. I like being single..for the most part. I have started dating again and I am enjoying the experiences that I am getting from dating. I have also started my hand at baking. I am hoping that I get followers that will enjoy the humor behind my dates and my experiences in my new life. People who will offer me advice and a ear to bend.