So I walked down the road a little sideways

Four months ago I came home to my heart being broken and my world shattered. My boyfriend at the time, the man I had been living with for the past year. The man I had stood beside through everything he was going through, had packed his stuff and left while I was at work. I felt my life shatter in that moment. I know what people are thinking. You are young, your life couldn't possibly shatter over that. If he left then you are better off. And right you are. About being better off. But my life did shatter, and at the time I didn't believe I was better off. For about a week I moped around and then I did my best to start to move on. I hadn't heard a word from him, and to this day I really haven't. As hard as I tried I felt like I was in a hole. My life was over. I loved that guy so much. We had talked about getting married. I had found out before he left that he had cheated on me. I had asked him if he was willing to lose me and he told me no. Anyways..Back to me..  I started to realize things, like I had stopped putting myself first, I stopped taking care of me and started taking care of him. So I decided to start back with me. Started hitting the gym again, got my haircut and highlighted, which everyone just loved, starting wearing make up again. In other words..I started doing me. Going out and being with my friends again. My family. The people that I let go of because of him. I started opening my eyes. Even though I was opening my eyes and seeing things for what they really were..I still loved this man. I still missed him. It was still terribly hard on me. I was doing all these things and still felt dead inside. That's when I realized that..yes I had died but it was really a blessing in disguise. I hated the person I was. I hated the person I was being. This was really my second chance at life. So I cried my last tears over him and got up from my knees and knew that this was my chance for a new start. I had gotten into reading about the laws of attraction and how whatever you think about you bring about. I have never been a happy person but I changed my attitude and for the first time in my entire life I am truly truly happy. Now that I have gotten to the most important part of my life. The now..I am living in the now. Living life for every moment that comes along. I've taken my life back into my own hands. For the first time in my life I am okay..even happy with where I am. I love my family because they stood by my side. They were my rock when I needed them the most. I have repaired my relationships with them. I like being single..for the most part. I have started dating again and I am enjoying the experiences that I am getting from dating. I have also started my hand at baking. I am hoping that I get followers that will enjoy the humor behind my dates and my experiences in my new life. People who will offer me advice and a ear to bend.